Collboll - Mitt liv i Gambia

Religion is one of the hardest things. What is wrong, what is right? Is there any right or wrong?
Everyone has a free will, what ever you want to do or what you want to believe you can, just make sure you are doing it because you want to.
We can't know if there is a heaven or hell until we are gone and then it's to late, but ask your self what do you loose by believing?

Believing and having faith is a wonderful thing, maybe time is unfair right now but after rain there will be sunshine.

Woke up with a big smile. I feel so happy and blessed. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends, a loving boyfriend and a great job. I'm blessed to have two places to call home, Africa and Sweden.
I was talking to a friend about how it all began with me loving in Gambia. If you told me one year ago that I would be living here and enjoying every moment of it, I wouldn't believe you. I learn so much from it and I grew as a person.

The only thing that i wish was that my family back home was here to enjoy it with me

I realized that everyone is trying so hard to please other people. But what is the point of making someone happy when you are sad? I'm not talking about my self but to watch people do the same mistake over and over makes me frustrated. Why do we try so hard to get accepted and be people pleasers? Is our ultimate goal in life to make others happy? If that is the case what happens when everyone is satisfied? We stop?

The random conversations I have with my self is crazy..

Det är mycket att stå i nu innan det är dags för avfärd. Har ännu inte hittat ett hus men idag ska J åka och kolla. Är spänd, men samtidigt ska det bli jobbigt att åka ifrån alla igen. Det här är något jag måste göra, några jag måste få känna, ni kanske inte förstår men det går inte att förklara det heller.

Ska väl göra lite nytta men egentligen vill jag bara ligga och kolla tv hela dagen men icke!

Puss på er

Tror jag har bestämt mig för att börja blogga igen. Är inte säker men jag tror det. Jag har aldrig riktigt bloggat för att få massa följande utan mer för min egen skull. Men efter jag börja med instagram så glömmer jag bort att slänga in några rader här. Så vad är nytt? Jag drar tillbaka till Gambia på fredag morgon, stannar nog ett halvår men man ska aldrig säga aldrig (åt båda hållen). Biljetten bokades idag och jag har nästan packat klart, är väl lite uppspelt ;)

Hade en skum dröm inatt, drömde att min tatuering försvann, alltså bläcket bara lossnade även fast den är läkt och när jag gick till hampus och berättade och bad han göra om så sa han nej för det va mitt fel att jag hade varit dåligt med att smörja in?! Så imorse vakna jag lite smått panikslagen och va tvungen att kolla efter men den satt kvar :)

Alltid när jag skriver ett inlägg så känns det som att jag är så himla tråkig? Men men det återstår att se om jag kan fortsätta med bloggandet eller om det också bara håller någon dag. Snart ska jag sova (jobbar till 6) och imorgon är det full rulle och kvällen ska avslutas med mys med syster<3

När jag knata in i köket för att hämta en cigg låg alla paketen fint med en tändare på, vet inte om det va en pik från våran egna tändarkleptoman i huset eller inte..

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Are we fooling ourselves? Taking about the future and how we want it look like.. In my future I wanna see u and me together. We can keep on taking about things that wont happen and tell each other how much we care but the truth is that we both know that in the end it won't matter. We're doomed from the start and we know it. How long will it take before one of us moves on and finds love somewhere else? Wouldn't it be easier just to say goodbye now? Wouldn't it save us, wouldn't it help us?

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På väg till gamla stan för att käka lunch med mamma, Marcus, Ylva och casse. Tänkte gå runt och leka turister så mamma har systemkameran i högsta hugg!

Ha en trevlig dag, puss

Why is it that we always wish for the things we dont have? That we constantly looking for new thing, we want new cloths, new hairstyles, new boobs and new life's. Why can't we be happy about the things we have and be grateful that our life's are wonderful without all of this things? Why are humans so hard to please? Even if I had all the money in the world I'm sure I still would be searching for new things. I just think its stupid to wish for the things u don't have when u instead can be grateful for the life u already have..

You have two choices in life, you can either sit around and be too scared to do anything and later wonder “what if” or you can actually do the things you want and find out if it was worth it. No one can tell you what’s right or wrong because its only you who knows what’s right for you. If you want something and you’re ready to work hard to get it, you will succeed. Nothing is impossible, something’s are just a bit harder to get.

Sometimes we will regret the choices we mad and wish we did it all differently but instead of regretting, be glad and thankful that you learned from your mistakes and I promise that you will be wiser the next time. No one said life was going to be easy but we have the opportunity to make it exactly what we want. I’m glad no one gave me a manual on how to act and live because my mistakes have helped me grow as a person. When I was 12 I thought I was so grown up and I knew everything, no one could tell me what I can or can’t do. As I grown older I realized that all does thinks I did (when I was so “grown up”) just proved how young my mind really was. But who knows who I would have been if I didn’t do all the things then..

I’m not proud of everything I did, not ever choice I mad, the lies I said or the people I let in but I’m sure as hell proud of myself now, for how I learned to live as I want and not how other people expect me to be.  It’s still a long way to go before I can throw in the towel. I will make mistakes, I will trust the wrong people, I will be hurt, but I will also find the people that was worth waiting for and I will grow even more from all those mistakes.  I’m not there yet but when I am I hope I don’t look back with regrets.